For the past two days I've had a heartache. It took me a while to recognize why: I'm about to leave Japan.
It's the same feeling I get when I must say good-bye to my family or to those I love.
I decided not to schlep a camera with me today and regretted it very quickly. Within the confines of the art and design section of the Tokyo Matsuya Department store, was a small gallery of bonsai trees that were unlike any bonsai I have ever seen. I know these trees had spirits. I literally gasped when I saw them, regal and splendid, ranging in age from 80 to 150 years old. They all were larger than I thought bonsai could be ; about 2.5'-3' tall. One pot (bon) contained a forest of bare and slender maple trees, another a black pine on a huge knarled trunk, then a perfectly proportioned bare beech tree, and a flamboyant orange tree bedecked with fruit as if they were lavish jewels that Elizabeth Taylor would have enjoyed flaunting. I have since learned that these larger bonsai are classified as dai bonsai (up to 40" in height).
I have found other, smaller bonsai trees intriguing, but undeniably bordering on the weird. I have felt compassion for them, as if they’d been tortured and not allowed to manifest their true nature. These trees elicited nothing but awe and reverence in me as any great art form.
Serendipity happens to me several times a day when I am in Japan.
The visual impressions make deep inroads in my future aesthetic choices.
The culinary experiences delight me at least three times a day, whether it be for a french pastry perfected by a Japanese baker, a bowl of hand-cut udon, or feather light tempura. No longer am I capable of just throwing any food on a plate. It must be chosen according to season, color and even the dishes to be served on.
Nature, as seen through the eyes of a Japanese landscape designer, somehow transforms into More then Nature. This is true whether it is in a courtyard arrangement of stones and moss, a flower arrangement, or the design of a large temple garden.
The Japanese people never fail to show me great kindness, warmth and generosity, at a time when I often become discouraged in the way Americans can treat each other. Their patience, politeness and thoughtfulness demonstrate a better way of being in relationship with others.
And so it is time to depart. I leave richer than when I entered. Fatter too. But the extraordinary thing is, when in Japan, I remain as a child, in a state of wonder.
Below, some of the photos, that bring inspiration.
FOOD
Fresh crab on New Year's Eve, followed by sushi.
A hollowed out orange filled with orange jelly/sorbet for New Year's dinner.
making and roasting rice crackers with fresh peanuts. eat immediately.
Japanese pizza
Nature Revered
Gion district in Kyoto
Kodaiji Temple in Kyoto, winter!


the hollowed out trunk of an ancient tree
The Quirky
The People
Iron Chef
btw, that's a container of sake, awaiting our consumption.
out to dinner with the irrepressible Matsuzaki-san!
and two of my dearest friends in the whole wide world...Harumi-san and Matsuzaki-san!